That being said, I have a small goal for the next 6 months. I will start making lesson plans that interest me. I will stop prioritizing keeping kids in their seats and start prioritizing engaging my students. Here soon I will have to make a decision about whether I will continue with this teaching gig next year. I'm going to give it one last chance. I aim to give my job 100% creativity and effort the next month or two to see if the dread stops.
I'll let you know what shakes out.